I love the ability to be. I am free.

I saw you staring at me.

Watching me

with those hazel eyes of yours

wishing you could be mine

and now in my mind

I'm laughing in your face

because with me

you boy came too late

now someone else

is here holding me

you look so dumb

still staring at me

we can all tell you want to be

forever dancing with me,

but now in the arms of someone

who actually jumped on the boat

because i've given you a chance

too many and now your in your bed

sittin eating some ben n jerry

the girl at the front of the class

is it because there is this girl

she just cant escape

these four walls

the color of blank,

its the same color

of the things i don't ever wanna see

don't even wanna be

i just want to leave i want to graduate

and see this giant world

but for this time i just seem to wait and wait

it makes the clock go slower

time to pass wont ever last

with a girl who's a mover and a goer

she never stops never takes a break

she's a little perfectionist

cant make a single mistake

as i fix and fix until

until I make me fake

real is what's worth the search

until then i'll be waiting for you

praying in church

the Deep-Six

If i could only forget about it

just like everyone else has over the summer

the biggest issue i that i had only wanted people to act like they didn't know

and now I'm not sure if you are being really respectful or you have only forgotten

I don't want to ask you and remind you of the terrible pain you had all seen me in

because its even painful for me to remind you that that pain is still there

i still have to deal with it

even though the only thing i want to do is run away

but the only problem is it is me

its a part of me i just cant rip away

or just escape.

its follows me everywhere i go and i can't help a thing

just i wish you had realized how much pain it is

how much i have to cry

how hard it is to just go through a single day

as strong as i am , I'm still a weak soul

tired more than anything at the end of the dayforever as i wait for this cloud to pass and finally find my own silver lining

oh what a joyous day it would be to me

wishing you were there

I'm jealous of you.

The girl who gets to worry about the things she gets too

she gets to worry about things that seem like nothing to me

how jealous i am.

the way how your biggest fear in life is getting a flu shot

how you think a common cold is a big deal.

the way you can fall in love without a worry

and make friends without ever have saying a goodbye

your already so lucky, you probably don't need to pray

the way your actually mean it when you say "I'm Great"

you worry about your forgotten science homework

or having to take the bus

your so ungrateful of your parents.

you have a thousand reasons to hate them yet i cant see one

you have no idea how i wish my life could be as carefree as yours

every night i count my blessings and as i still keep you in them

its not like me to be jealous

but a such an absentminded girl like you probably deserves it

having heard your problems day after day night after night

i cant take it no more.

here i am making sure i say thank you whenever i can

because of the way everything has effected my life so greatly

that even the littlest things are the only things that can make my day

i just need you to be what i'd let you in my life to be

a friend.

when i need you your not ever here to hear my problems

as i go though my most life changing hardships

your not here.

on my short list of wishes

i now add you to it. wishing you were here.

only a shoulder to cry on and an ear to listen

wishing you were here.

drinking

Some people look at the glass of water as

half empty or half full. I instead just take that glass and drink it.

i guess you could always say that i've always just done it.

I'd taken that ever so talked about glass and chugged it

thinking too much into things always had me think myself out of it

it was if i was to think any longer about the glass i'd just sit there.

but i met someone.

someone who barely knows me yet has taught me so much

a person whom i'd never talk to

yet ever so love to.

realizing this made me take those chances

instead of waiting for the train to hit me

he had taught me to cross the tracks

i swear i've only said less than 20 words to the boy

i wish i'd have to say more but getting to notice everything you've done

makes me want to yell at you

but i have too much respect for myself to act so

for the line up of great girls who'd wish you'd stop ignoring us

and the girls who had done not a thing wrong to you

i'd just want to tell you girls that your better that that,

now please just take that glass and drink it to the very last drop

drink up that courage

stand up and leave him

make speechless cause he doesn't deserve a word to a girl as great as you.

him

I wish this didn't end the way did.

without an ending I'm not quite sure if it did or not

We both cared for each and had promised so much

now two ropes spinning in different directions

if were doing anything i'd call it double dutch

We were both so young , gracious and once kids

but is it so that you have forgotten me

i feel as if we've just fallen off our map and grids

i could once fell you just taking over this soul

could anyone of told me the great amount of danger

you were to me and how could you ever forget

why am i now just some stranger

I told you ever little thing. every secret

and how could i ever trust an idiot like you

why could i think you would keep it

and when i think of the damage you did

even meeting you is such a regret

but i cant. and i won't

because at the end of the day

it was my fault for falling for a boy

and a devil that never could repay